Handing it over to God

How do you come to terms with your imagined worst case scenario becoming a reality?  You trust in God.  That's the only answer I can seem to come up with and I have been wracking my brain from days now.

I am feeling discouraged and heart broken.  It feels like our dreams of parenthood drift further and further away as each day passes.  I have been patient God ... I have waited years after my peers began their journeys into parenthood.  I have endured Facebook pregnancy announcements by the dozens, I have been to baby showers like it's my part-time job and it seems that the more discouraging my infertility journey becomes the more I become a fertile lucky charm for those around me.  Why God, why is this your plan for my life?  What am I missing? 
I think I have been missing an opportunity to work on my relationship with God.  I have been asking for an awful lot while giving nothing in return.  No adoration or thanksgiving in my prayers, only petition and I'm not particularly proud of it.  But the beauty of our God's grace is that it's never too late. 

You must
You must think I'm strong
To give me what I'm going through

Well, forgive me
Forgive me if I'm wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own

I know I'm not strong enough to be
Everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not strong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord, right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us

 

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough